A little push

So, I guess all Brandon needed was a little push, or for me to let him know that I was ready and willing and wanting a bit of kinkiness back in our life.  I hate just walking up to him and asking for what I want so I decided to be blatantly creative about how I told him.  While he was at work one day (a few days back) I set up a little arrangment on our bed.  I laid out all the toys I wanted to play with and some toys I thought he might want to play with too (even though I didn't really want to).  Then on top of all of that I put a little heart shaped note specifying that I'd like to "play" when we next get the chance.  It didn't happen that night and he told me to put all the toys and things away.  I was afraid he might forget or just decide not to do anything about it, but then 2 days later we are getting all hot and heavy and he pulls out the toy bag.  I was a very happy girl that night.  There was a bit of everything, spanking, teasing, he even folded up our rope and made it into a makeshift gag and horse reins... and there was the reappearance of the butt plug.  I do not hate or love that thing... but I'm not quite ambivilent about it either.  It makes me anxious, and nervous.  He didn't pull it out for play until I was very into our play and I had the vibrator on my clit and the gag still in my mouth.  From the moment that I felt him start to push it in I was whining and shaking my head in protest.  He ignored it and just kept slowly easing it into my backside.  After a while it started to hurt so I spit out the gag (with his permission of course) and I told him that it hurts a little.  He didn't want to take it out of me I think because he tried a few different things asking if that or this made it hurt less before finally removing it.  I thought that was the end of it, but he just lubed it up more and pushed it back in.  I have to say I'm glad he is so insistent on this because I'd be to afraid if it was left up to me and that evil little black thing would never be used.

Anyway, his domination didn't end that night because last night he got right back into it and was even more dominant.  We didn't play with any toys but his dominance was even more clear in the way he placed his hand around my throat, pulled my head back by my hair and spanked me.  Even in the way he had sex with me it was clear who was in charge.

So yes, I am now a very content, happy little girl.